to get a rainbow, you have to put up with the rain first

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 01:49:15 GMT

01. Birth Name: Amanda
02. Hair Color: dirty blonde
03. Eye Color: green
04. Height Currently: 5'
05. Glasses/contacts: nope
06. Birthdate: May 4
08. School or Work: school
09. Siblings: 1
10. Siblings age: 20
11. Location: Gardner
12. College Plans: still planning :/
13. Any Piercing: ears & belly button
SOCIAL LIFE
01. Best Friends: every1 whos there for me
02. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: not sure lol im a loser i know
03. Current Crush: yupp
04. Hobbies: fh,snowboarding
h07. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: dont got my license
08. Are You Timely Or Always Late: timely
09. Do You Have A Job: nah
10. Do You Like Being Around People: yea of course u hate being alone for the most part
STUFF
01. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
02. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yea
03. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: not really
04. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: i dk
05. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: yea kind of
06 Are You Lonely Right Now: yea
07. Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: yea one of my biggest fears
08. Do You Want To Get Married: yes
09. Do You Want Kids: yea
Who Do You Think Of When you Hear These Names:
Sean: my aunt(AA ball stuff not her name lol
Steve: tv today lol
Pat: PATCHES
Bobby:uncle
Jessica: simpson
Elizabeth: horses<---one of my other aunts lol
FAVORITE
01. Room In house: my room
02. Type of music: depends on how i feel
03. Song: a few dif. 1s
04. Memory: i have to many lol
05. Day Of The Week: saturday
06. Color: pink
07. Perfume Or Cologne: ralph lauren for women
08. Flower: roses
09. Month: october
10. Season: fall
11. Place to be kissed: lips
12. Location for dates: doesnt really matter
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
01. Cried: no
02. Bought Something: yes
03. Gotten Sick: no for once im not sick
04. Sang: YEA
05. Said I Love You: no
06. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: no
07. Met Someone New: yea
08. Moved On: from who?? lol
09. Talked To Someone: Yes
10. Had A Serious Talk: yea
12. Hugged Someone: Yea amanada lol
13. Kissed Someone: no
14. Fought With Your Parents: for once i havent lol
15. Dreamt About Someone You Can't Be With: no
16. Had a lot of sleep: kind of

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 15:59:45 GMT

ANDERS
Ughh i hate gardner SO much all i want to do is get out of here!!there's so much drama here and half the people here talk shit about you. I miss cape cod so much everything is so chill there. it sucks so much.the one person i really miss is the one person who means the msot to me right now in my life besides MY AMANDAS and MY DANIELLE.Anders i miss you so much and i love talking to u on the phone that completes my day and it makes me feel so much better. you have no idea how much u mean to me or how much i care about you. i know at times it dont seem it but i miss u so much i think about you all the time...its just its much harder for me to say it to u on the phone.i really didnt think that i was going to miss u or the cape life this much. everyday i find myself just thinking about cape cod and the people there especially Anders. umean so much to me but it sucks cause all i can do is talk to uon the phone...i need a break from my gardner life and go for a weekend to cape cod.when i go to the cape its like my fantasy life something i can have for a few days but its not real. i <3 u!

MY AMANDA'S
U guys are awesom i seriously dont know what id do with out u guys!apple picking was so much fun cant wait till we go in October for apple/pumpkin picking!! and no snakes this time!!

DANIELLE
DAMN i miss u so much and i know we dont talk alot which sucks cause it kind of feels like we are drifting apart and i never wanted that to happen between us i hope things can get better cause no matter how far apart we r ur still my big burd and my latino luv!!! ull be getting ur presents in the mail soon!

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 17:40:38 GMT

When was the last time you___
[x]cried: today
[x]played a sport: yesterday
[x]laughed: last night
[x]hugged someone: last night
[x]kissed someone: dk
[x]felt depressed: this week
[x]felt overworked: this week
[x]faked sick: Don't remember
[x]lied: Don't remember

What was the last_______
[x]word you said: bye
[x]thing you ate: apple

[x]song you listened to: Something corporate- places u have come to fear the most
[x]thing you drank: water
[x]place you went to: game & dance
[x]movie you saw: lilo and stitch
[x]movie you rented: dont remeber

Who was the last person you_______
[x]hugged: AMANDA
[x]cried over: not telling
[x]kissed: confidential
[x]danced with: Amanda
[x]shared a secret with: amanda
[x]had a sleepover with: THE AMANDAS

[x]called: Amanda B.
[x]went to a movie with: Courteney

[x]saw: my mom
[x]were angry with: some one :/
[x]couldn't take your eyes off:not telling
[x]obsessed over: i dont get obsessed
Have you ever_______
[x]danced in the rain: yupp
[x]kissed someone: yea
[x]done drugs: no
[x]drank alcohol: tried
[x]slept around: nope
[x]partied 'til the sun came up: no
[x]had a movie marathon: yea
[x]gone too far on a dare: I don't think so\
[x]spun until you were immensely dizzy: yes
[x]taken a survey quite like this before: uh huh

My life_______
[x] name: Amanda
[x] gender: female
[x] birthday: May 4
[x] relationship status: not sure
[x] nationality: white
[x] occupation: Full time student =(

Play_______
[x]i'm feeling: sad
[x]i`m listening to: Linkin Park-Numb

[x]i'm doing: nothing
[x]talking to: amanda o. and amanda b.
[x]i'm craving: nothing
[x]i'm thinking of: some1
[x] i'm hating: this fight
[x] love is: dnt even wanna tlk about LOVE
[x] my first love: Josh
[x] my current love: some1
[x] love or lust: love i guess
[x] best love song: Dj Sammy-we're in heaven
[x] is it possible to be in love w/more than one person at the same time: i dont know
[x] when love hurts:i cry
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: Lust, not love
[x] what is your definition of love: a huge fucking rollar coaster
Opposite sex_______
[x] turn ons: funny,nice eyes,nice all around
[x] turn offs: being an asshole

[x] do your parents' opinion on your gf/bf matter to you?: not really
[x] what kinda hairstyle are you into?: im not sure
[x] what is the sweetest thing a girl/guy can do for you?: just be caring and be there
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: out? ummm i dk
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLA and ask for numbers?: nope if they ask thats ok
Picky picky_______
[x] dog or cat: dog
[x] short or long hair: long
[x] sunshine or rain: sunshine
[x] hugs or kisses: there both good

[x] summer or winter: summer
[x] written letters or e-mails: e-mails
[x] playstation or nintendo: nintendo

[x] car or motorcycle: car
[x] house party or club: club
[x] sing or dance: dance
[x] freak or slow dance: freak hehe

Lately_______
[x] how are i'myou today?: ummm could b better
[x] what pants are you wearing right now?: skirt
[x] what shirt are you wearing right now?: a black shirt

[x] what does your hair look like at the moment?: straight down

[x] what song are you listening to right now?: Goo Goo dolls-IRISh hahah lol
[x] how is the weather right now?: a nice sunny cool fall day
[x] who was last person i talked to on the phone?: Amanda B.
[x] last dream i can remember?: the car accident :/
[x] who am i talking to right now:no1
[x] what time is it?: 1:34 pm

More about you!_______
[x] what are the last four digits of your phone number?: 8393
[x] if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: HOTT PINK
[x] have you ever almost died?: uhh i dont think so
[x] do you like the person that sent you this?: dont know them
[x] what's the next CD your going to buy?: not sure
[x] what's the best advice ever given to you?: live ur life to the fulliest things can only get better

[x] have you ever won any special award?: yea
[x] what's the stupidest thing you've ever done?:god just 1?
[x] if you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: probably my atittude
[x] where do you shop the most?: ae
[x]how many kids do you want to have?: 1 or 2
[x] son's name?: not sure
[x] daughter's name?: not sure
[x] shampoo?:suave
[x] what are you most scared of?: feet ,spiders and snakes
[x] how many TV's do you have in your house?: 3
[x] do you have your own TV?: yea
[x] do you have your own phone line?: nope, cellular tho

[x] do you sleep with a stuffed animal? somtimes
[x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone?yea sprained
[x] who do you dream about?: people
[x] who do you tell your dreams to?: my friends
[x] who's the loudest friend you have?: danielle
[x] who's the quietest friend you have?: courteney
[x] is cheerleading a sport?: not to miaa but yea it is
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?: ask the owl

Me and love_______
[x] do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: im not sure
[x] do you have a crush?: yea
[x] in love right now?: hmmm not sure
[x] where would you like to go on your honeymoon?: I have not thought about that one
[x] do you find yourself ugly?: kind of

[x] do others find you attractive?: im not sure

Red Apple farm with The Amanda's

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 22:11:41 GMT

Me and amanda with some shaving cream on our faces!!hehehe

Amanda talking to Bob the turkey @ the red apple farm

Me amanda , amanda v and my mom in the pumpkin patch right before i seen a huge ass scary snake...lol i was screaming so loud!!

Amanda O. picking her first apple at the red apple farm, it was her first time going apple picking today!!

Amanda V. and Amanda O. @ my house

Amanda O.'s awesome picture...lol she was trying to take a picture of the rabbits!!

Me and Amanda V. with shaving cream on our faces!! SHAVING CREAM FIGHT lol

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 23:24:56 GMT

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books<---im working on it
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies<---o yes all the time
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin<---i wish
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scars
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast ..sometimes
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look all the time

39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to do cornrows

41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings <---well i have in the past few days and im sorry for those who have put up with me
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that i'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I'm obsessed with my Ujournal or Livejournal
58. I don't hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life<well some of it i have an idea
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal

87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 15:53:27 GMT

I've been thinking about a bunch of stuff... i seriously hope it all works out in the end and that im not trying to hard to end up only getting myself hurt i have a way in doing that!!

Anyways

the past few days i just been sitting at home relaxing. I went to the drive-ins sunday with frank,amanda and josh. It was fun seeing i havent been to the drive-ins since gardner had theirs over maybe even before then lol.Josh kept scaring us even though the movie wasn't scray. On monday me amanda josh and frank hung out during the night but we didn't do that much. owell it was still fun. tuesday i just sat t home and did nothing really. The rest of this week will be busy for me but i'm really excited. My cape friends are coming to visit on sunday and i know i probably wont see them after that till next summer maybe.then not this sunday but next sunday me and amanda are going clubbing that should be fun! on the sat. @ 10:14 lol we are going grocery shopping lol me amanda,shi jie and pete!!lol the 3 pink musketeers remember act ur shoe size!!lol and bring your cameras ill try to post our pictures this should be intresting lol! me and amanda grocery shopping is wicked funny though!Amanda's mommy leaves us the house on friday!!yay 20-30 we are alone!! well im out

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 05:09:27 GMT

?? HAVE YOU EVER
1.Kissed your cousin: no
2.Ran away: yea but my mom always seems to find me even if i try
3.Pictured your crush naked: yea
4.Actually seen your crush naked:yea lol
5.Broken someone's heart:not sure i hope not
6.Been in love: yes
7.Cried when someone died: yes
8.Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yea who hasnt?
9.Broken a bone: no
10.Drank alcohol: yea
11.Lied: yupp
12.Cried in school: yea

?? WHICH IS BETTER
13.COKE OR PEPSI: hmm tuff 1 not to sure
14.SPRITE OR 7UP: sprite
15.GIRLS OR GUYS: guys
16.FLOWERS OR CANDY:Flowers
17.SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: it all depends
18.QUIET OR LOUD: loud
19.BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: im a mix of both lol so both
20.BITCHY OR SLUTTY: bitchy
21.TALL OR SHORT: well short cause i am but i like my guys taller then me but that's not hard
22.PANTS OR SHORTS:Pants

?? WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23.WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: smile and eyes
24.LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: zach @ a dance but me and josh were fooling around and we were dacing in a parking lot lol
25.WORST QUESTION TO ASK: is she prettier then me?

?? THE LAST TIME
26.SHOWERED: this morning
27.HAD SEX:that's classified information
28.HAD A GREAT TIME WITH A GUY: today

?? WHAT IS
29.YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: # 4
30.PERSON YOU HATE MOST: not to sure
31.THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY:i went sailing that's so much fun!!

? FAVORITES
32.COLOR: pink
33.MOVIE: Erin Brocovich or sweet home alabama
34.BOOK: drowning ruth
35.SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: math
36.JUICE: orange pineapple
37.CARS: supra or skylines r nice
38.ICE CREAM: creamsicle or rainbow sherbert
39.HOLIDAY:christmas
40.SEASON: Autumn,winter and summer
41.BREAKFAST FOOD: bagels
42.PLACE TO GO WITH YOUR HUNNY: anywhere

?? WHO
43.MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST:amanda
44.MAKES YOU SMILE: all of my friends
45.GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM:josh
46.HAS A CRUSH ON YOU:i dk i dnt go around asking people lol
47.DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: Josh i think its alittle more then a crush lol
48.CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT:Amanda and Danielle
49.HAS IT EASIER GUYS OR GIRLS: guys got it waaay easier

?? DO YOU EVER
50.SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT:yea
51.SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS:sometimes
52.SAVE E-MAILS: Yea
53.WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: yes
54.WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX:No
55.CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS:yea

?? BEST
56.COLOGNE: kira theres a few others 2
57.PERFUME: lilu but i like a few others 2
58.KISS: in a volvo on the way home from the beach my first kiss with josh
59.ROMANTIC MEMORY: when josh showed up at my door with a dozen roses!!
60.MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU:be patient

?? HAVE YOU:
61.Fallen for your best friend?: no
62.Made out w/ JUST a friend?: yea
63.Been rejected?:yea
64.Been in love?:yes
65.Been in lust?: Oh yeah
66.Used someone?: No
67.Been used?: yea
68.Cheated on someone?: no
69.Been cheated on?:yea
70.Been kissed?: YEAH
71.Done something you regret?:i try not to regret stuff but it happens sometimes

Who was the last person...
72.You touched?: josh
73.You talked to?:Amanda
74.You hugged?:Josh
75.You instant messaged?: danielle
76.You kissed?:josh
77.You had sex with?:hmmm...classified information
78.You yelled at?: chiquita
79.You laughed with?: Amanda or josh i can't remember
80.Who broke your heart?: ummm...:/
81.Who told you they loved you?:i don't remember haven't heard that for awhile

Do you..
82.Color your hair? just highlights
83.Have tattoos? No
84.Have piercings? ears and belly button
85.Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? nope
86.Own a webcam? we have one but i dont use it
87.Own a thong? yea
88.Ever get off the damn computer?yea
107.What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? eyes and smile
108.Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: yea
109.Would you marry for money?:no
110.Have you had braces?: yea
111.Do you pluck your eyebrows?: yea
112.Do you like hairy backs?: no
113.When was the last time you had a hickey?:i think march
114.Could you live without a computer?:sure.
115.Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: AIM
116.If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: 200
117.If you could live in any past, where would it be? the 60's
119.Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?:i take them off
120.What is your favorite fruit?: strawberries
121.Do you eat wheat bread or white?:both
122.What is your favorite place to visit?:Cape Cod
123.What is the last movie you saw?:head of state
124.Do you kiss on the first date?: depends
125.Are you photogenic? yea
126.Do you dream in color or black and white?: it depends
127.Are you wearing fingernail polish?: no
128.Is it chipped or fresh?: neither
129.Do you have any dimples?: no i dont think so
130.Do you remember being born?: no
131.Why do you take surveys?: cause im really bored
132.Do you drink alcohol? no
133.Did you like or do you love high school?: its ok could b better cant wait to leave
135.Who do you want to kiss? kiss who?? theres no1 here
136.Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?:sunsets
137.Do you want to live to be 100?:yea but i doubt ill make it that long
138.Are flat stomachs important? yea
139.Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: lol yea once
140.Are you loyal?: yes
141.Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: yes
142.When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
143.Do you have nightmares frequently?: yes
144.Do you like your nose?: umm its ok
145.Do you think you can draw well?: if i really try i can do some good stuff
149.Do you write poetry?:Yes
150.Do you snore?: no
151.Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?:my sides
152.dog/cat? both
156.Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: emotional most def.
159.Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: piano
161.Do you know someone who has cancer?:yes
162.Do you like to argue?: no i hate it but it happens
166.Do you have a middle name? What is it?: yes Lynn
167.Are you basically a happy person?: i guess sometimes
168.Are you tired?: yes
169.Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today? no
170.Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: no!!
171.How many phones do you have in your house?: 2
172.How long is your hair?:to the middle of my back
173.Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
174.What color eyes do you prefer? Blue or green
176.Were you named after anyone? no my mom just went to the meeting lol (inside joke with my Amanda's)hahaha
177.Do you wish on stars? if so, when did it work if ever? yea and im still waiting for my wish to come true lol
179.When did you last cry? thursday
181.Do you like your handwriting? no
182.Who do you admire, why? I don't really admire one person
185.Any bad habits?: i put myself down alot
186.What is your most embarrassing CD? i dont know
187.If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself? maybe
188.Are you a daredevil? yea
189.Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? no
191.Do looks matter? to some extent u need to b physically attracted to someone
192.Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? ohhh yeah
193.Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? yes there is!!
195.Are you trendy? kind of i try sometimes
196.How do you release anger? I try to write poems, go for a run or listen to music
199.What was your favorite toy as a child? barbies,ninga turtles and legos lol
200.What class in school do you think is totally useles? im not sure
201.Do you like sappy love songs? yea most of them
202.Have you ever been on radio or television? yea
203.Do you have a journal? yes
204.Do you use sarcasm a lot? ohh yea thats a bad habbit too lol
206.What do you look for in a guy/girl? nice, good personality,funny and make me feel loved
207.What is your nickname? Choni and Fefe
208.Would you bungee jump? I wanna do it!!
209.Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? no
210.What are you worried about right now? the next few months!
211.Do you ever wear overalls? no
212.Do you think you are strong? no not really
213.What's your mom's job? she works for loomis fargo
214.What's your dad's job? he works @ h&r and he's a chef
216.How many wisdom teeth do you have? 4 somewhere
219.What would you change about yourself? ALOT
220.Who is most likely to respond to this first? not sure
221.Who are the people you care most about? my friends and family
222.I see: the computer
223.I need: something to make me feel better
225.I want: someone
226.I have: my kitty and friends
227.I wish: that i could feel better
228.I love: my friends and family and cats
229.I hate: feeling like shit
230.I miss: DANIELLE and my brother
231.I fear: for the next few months
232.I feel: like sleeping
233.I hear: yellowcard
234.I smell: nothing
235.I wonder: if it will rain tomorrow, it best not!!
236.I regret: starting this damn thing lol

When was the last time I ...
237.Smiled?: today
238.Laughed?: today
239.Cried?: thursday
240.Bought something?: friday
241.Danced?: this morning in the shower!!
242.Were sarcastic?: yesterday
243.Kissed someone?: today
244.Talked to an ex?: today
245.Watched your favorite movie?: a few days ago
246.Do you own any plaid clothing?: yea plaid comfy pants
247.Do you own Converse shoes?: no
250.Do you wear tight pants?: yes
251.Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: no im not that big of a freak!!

In the last day:
252.Worn a skirt: yea
253.Been mean: i didnt mean it
254.Been sarcastic: no
255.Met someone new: no
256.Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes
257.Missed someone: yes
258.Hugged someone: yes
259.Fought with your parents: no
260.Wished upon a star: no
261.Laughed until you cried: no
262.Played Truth or Dare: no, but that's a fun game ;)
263.Watched a sunrise/sunset: no
264.Went to the beach at night: no
265.Spent quality time alone: yea
266.Read a book for fun: yes
267.Are you lonely: yes
268.Are you wearing your pajamas: yea
269.Are you talking to someone online: no

damn this was long!! i just did it cause i was bored

only time will tell

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 04:21:21 GMT

There was alot going through my mind today and finally i reliazed that only time will tell me whats going to happen and that i need to be patient and just hope for the best.

Today i brought courteney home at 12. Then josh came over to give me some pictures from MV and i ended up going to his camp with him. we went sailing with his dad and his sister. then when we came back to gardner i saw mark, keith and tim. After josh dropped me off @ home cause he had to work i went and took a nap and i woke up with a headache and a fever that was @ 8:30 and i still have the headache!!and i took pain killers too!! and i tlked to amanda on the phone...i miss hanging out with her like we used to!!i hope ur mouth feels better tomorrow AMANDA!!!Me and amanda decided we are going to a redsoxs game in september either the 14th-16th cause her first red soxs game had a rain delay and we left.

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 05:19:37 GMT

I decided to make a new journal cause i kind of gave up on my old one along time ago and then i got bored one day so now its back!

Today was so boring i came home from courteney's house at 1:30 and then went out driving.i went to the mall to take check something out that i might buy but im not sure cause it all depends on the next few weeks...o well i guess. then i came home and i sat around and watched movies all night.well thats it for now!

AMANDA HOPE UR TEETH DONT HURT!!

new journal...

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 02:44:03 GMT

I thought i'd start my new journal off with this cause nothing instresting happened today...but maybe later tonight ill put in somestuff i've been thinking about!!

[[[PAST]]]
[1] First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Delbove
[2] Last word you said: pain
[3] Last song you sang: can't get no better
[4] Last person you hugged: josh
[5] Last thing you laughed at: when me and danielle said we look at ourselves in the mirror sometimes and say i would hit that lol
[6] Last time you said I dont remember: when my dad asked me where i got one of my belly button rings
[7] Last time you cried: last night

[[[PRESENT]]]
[8] What's in your CD player: mixed cd's
[9] What color socks are you wearing:no socks
[10] What's under your bed: nothing
[11] What time did you wake up today: 11:30
[12] Current taste: chinese food
[13] Current hair: down
[14] Current clothes: black shirt with my surf girl comfy pants
[15] Current annoyance: nothing
[16] Current longing: to feel wanted and loved by somebody
[17] Current desktop picture: a picture of me from the cape
[18] Current worry:the next few motnhs and how stressful they'll be
[19] Current hate: school is almost starting
[20] Current favorite article of clothing: my new pink skirt
[21] Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: eyes
[22] Last CD that you listened to: techno cd
[23] Favorite place to be: Cape Cod
[24] Least favorite place: school
[25] Time you wake up in the morning: 10-11
[26] If you could play an instrument, what would you play: piano or guitar
[27] Favorite color: pink
[28] Do you believe in an afterlife: yes
[29] How tall are you: 5'
[30] Current favorite word/saying: i don't have a favorite saying
[31] Favorite book: don't have one
[32] Favorite season: fall,winter and summer
[33] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my bestfriend mindy :(
[34] Favorite day: Friday

[[[FUTURE]]]
[35] Where do you want to go: not sure yet
[36] What is your career going to be like: i want to be in the medical field
[37] How many kids do you want: 2
[38] What kind of car will you have: not sure
[[[HAVE YOU EVER...]]]
[39] Said "I love you" and meant it: yes
[40] Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: no
[41] Been to New York: yea
[42] Been to Florida: yea
[43] Been to California: yea
[44] Been to Hawaii: no
[45] Been to Mexico: no
[46] Been to China: no
[47] Been to Canada: no
[48] Danced naked: yea of course all the time
[49] Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: yes
[50] Wanted to be the opposite sex: no
[51] Had an imaginary friend: yes

[[[RANDOM]]]
[52] Do you have a crush on someone: yea (more then a crush)
[53] What book are you reading now?: beloved
[54] Worst feeling in the world: feeling alone and being called hurtfull names by someone u really love
[55] What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: damn i wish i could sleep forever my dreams can b better then reality sometimes
56] How many rings before you answer:2
[57] Future daughter's name: not sure not looking that far ahead
[58] Future son's name: same as above
[59] Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yes
[60] If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be:fashion designer
[61] Wish you were here: Cape Cod
[62] College plans: not fully sure yet
[63] Piercings: ears and belly button
[[[THE EXTRA STUFF]]]
[64] Do you do drugs: no
[65] Do you drink: no
[66] Who are your best friends: Amanda, Danielle, and Courteney
[67] What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: suave
[68] What are you most scared of: my life and FEET lol im getting better
[69] What clothes do you sleep in: tank top and pants or shorts
[70] Who is the last person that called you: Josh
[71] Where do you want to get married: outdoors somewhere
[72] If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: my face and be skinner
[73] Who do you really hate: no one really
[74] Been In Love: yes
[75] Are You Timely Or Always Late: im usually early
[76] Do You Have A Job:no but i applied @ Deb's coffee cup
[77] Do You Like Being Around People: usually
[78] Best feeling in the world: being loved and being carefree
[79] Are you for world peace: yea but there's no such thing
[80] Are you a health freak: for the most part i slip sometimes
[81] Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: no
[82] Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: yeah
[83] Are You Lonely Right Now: yea
[84] Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: yes
[85] Do You Want To Get Married: yes
[86] Do You Want Kids: yeah

[[[IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...]]]
[87] Cried: yea last night
[88] Bought Something: yea chinese food
[89] Gotten Sick: kind of
[90] Sang: yes
[91] Said I Love You: yea
[92] Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: yea
[93] Met Someone New: yea
[94] Moved On: i try sometimes
[95] Talked To Someone: yea
[96] Had A Serious Talk: yea
[97] Missed Someone: yea
[98] Hugged Someone: yes
[99] Kissed Someone: yea
[100] Fought With Your Parents: yea
[101] Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: yes
[102] Had a lot of sleep: no